Barely over it but you are already over it. 1st of the month soon, is been a month. Do you miss me like I miss you?

Some girl commented on my photo "new boy boy?"

I was dying inside to say "can so fast get over your ex one meh"

So negative. Must stop it. The only promise I am going to make now is to myself - to run at least 2 times a week. Shall make my pink and black sport bra to good use.

Sorry this word has been overused and pretty much a worthless word. But J, all I can say to you is sorry.

When you’re the only one who remembers, maybe it’s not worth to keep it in your heart anymore; time to move on.

Stereo Hearts

Working in the office where you can get food easily just means one thing - weight gain.

Last few days in transit so we are and going to dine in transit for the rest of the week!

EDSM was at 230 but we had to sit through the whole meeting cause our item was number 8 which was the last item. Sat through a 4 hours meeting and looking at how bosses shoot their bullets and how a meeting actually goes.

Last presentation for this whole month and cant believe the 18weeks just went pass like that.

My MP/SIP buddies!

At 4:09pm trying to get the SIP report done.

To no regrets, I really wanted it at that point of time. All I can say is just wasted, gone to waste, gone.

I feel like a frog in the well, only knowing news through twitter, no life Abrie. Internship ending in two days but coffee machine job starting in 4 days. Everyday 12 - 8pm, I guess is way way better then office hours. Really, office hours is insane. 

Been chionging my HK drama and neglecting my Vampire Eric and Damon. I just watched one episode of TB and is going to be season finale!? Staying home and chionging all the dramas is life together with fruits juices and chips.

On the healthier side, I went for a jog this evening. Managed to run 2km and some crunches. Felt so good after sweating and working out. Damn, haven felt like this since a while. Feels good to wear my favorite jersey and tights to for run. 

At least 2km twice a week - My goal for the next two months till BKK trip in October.

Fix You (me)

When you try your best but you don't succeed

When you get what you want but not what you need 

When you feel so tired but you can't sleep 

 And the tears come streaming down your face

When you lose something you can't replace

When you love someone but it goes to waste

Could it be worse?

Too much, too soon.

Realize letting go not as easy I thought it would. You were a part of me, now I lost you completely. It feels like I got nowhere to go. It is even possible to lose someone in just merely few hours?

Time heals right? Or is what I have to constantly remind myself. Really hate you so much yet I am holding on still.

Why do I keep doing this to myself?

Been sick over a week already and still coughing. First two days was really horrible, woke up to puke my stomach acid out and coughing non stop like someone just switched on my cough button. Or someone was just cursing me to cough my lungs out. Saw another doctor, pop pills and thankfully I the next few nights was smooth. In the sense that I never wake up in the middle of the night to puke. I guess sometimes you really need to be really sick to take a break. 

Give my heart a break too.

Brother finally unlock level NC16. Please try to grow the ballz up and man up. 

Dinner at Outback on a Saturday night. Not a fan of beef though. 

This was just the appetizer and it was huge! Cheesy fries was gooooood. Anything with cheese is good. 

Tiny orange eggless cake!

Every year, same spot for whoever's birthday.

Is like a standard place to take photos of birthday cakes and birthday people.

Ending August soon, and what I experience for this whole month is that everybody comes and goes.

Save me from my never ending misery and self pity.

X

"刚开时，你情我愿。分手后，比之也不要说谁的坏话＂

对不起，我领悟了。
你开心就好。
保重。

Halfway more

Yes, another two weeks and I am so done with this 830-6 jobbbbbbbb. Not hating my internship, but really hate the working hours.

Zirca/Rebel on the 18th for Cheong's birthday!

Birthday boy with his Awfully chocolate cupcake! ^^

Hope you enjoyed your night.

Chao bin enen who refuses to smile for my camera.

Cousin's baby first birthday!

Pearlin Tan's first birthday! 

Pretty icing cake which costs 260 bucks!

Gathering like these is like CNY gathering. Somehow, I can feel the family bond better for this side of the family than the other side.

Just thankful for whatever I have right now. 

Roamed around with mama to serangoon, hougang, punggol, foch road and tampines to do my checks and bought a hell lot of comfort food and snacks despite my horrible dry cough which last a week already.

Well there is a saying "fight fire with fire"

The slience actions my mama do for me I feel so loved. I know whatever she does, is to make me happy. Never once gave me stress over anything, never. I love you, mama.

Second long weekend is well spent.

Cant wait for the holidays to come already. 

爱我,别走,如果你说,你不爱我。

Miss you but not to look back.

Awkward

I know I am not pretty or have fantastic hair like other people. I have a little meat the the rest. I don't dress as pretty as other girls. I don't have the talking chemistry. I have awkward silences. I burp damn loud. I always take a dump in the morning.

Endings

How did we end up this way. You might be talking about me. Take it as I am guilty. But i am not sorry for the things I said cause you really did hurt me. Just know that you being happy is all that matters. With or without me. I can't blame you forever.

When things go wrong, don’t go with them

Night is purer than day; it is better for thinking, loving and dreaming. At night everything is more intense, more true. The echo of words that have been spoken during the day takes on a new and deeper meaning.

Credits to Insta and twitter

We feed on the irony; we drink hypocrisy. We are everything we hate, but we have everything we need.
I'll get over it eventually and maybe even really soon but that doesn't make it hurt any less right now.

In time, things will fall in place.

Change

Change hair colour or sort of. Wanted bright blonde ended up with ah lian blonde highlights but still happy with the outcome!

Friday spent playing MJ and supper at Simpang. Look at the super huge portion of ice cream prata. Is just huge.

Primary 5 breast friends till now. 

Lovin' this dress so much! Second party night in a week. I literally die, sick cat now. I really got to say, it puts my mind off things. Just go crazy for a while.

 

First time trying green eyes but still prefer my purple eyes.

2.5 weeks before end of internship. Feel my joy of not waking up at 7 for work everyday! 

Time flies, baby, been 2 weeks already. I will stay strong. 

There is light at the end of the tunnel. I will find a way out, eventually.

Don't get how my brothers can stare at the computer the whole day. Fighting and shouting over the Internet connection. Is just the fucking Internet. Not as if you both are doing serious work. You need the connection just do that you can play your Dota game. Seriously? Banging the door, stomping the floor. Shouting across the room. Shouting to your own mother.

Respect your mother. 23 and 16 year old still can't think for your own mother. Can't you feel her heart breaking when you both act this way? Just disappointed in them. Really.

Enjoyed my long weekends so much and this is how it ends. Well done brothers.

Sitting around miserable all day wont make me any happier.

Since you are happy with your life now, me out of your life and your new girl, is time for me to shake you off. Heart breaks, but I am not broken. Why allow myself to be miserable when I have better things to do like making my mother happy?

End of my misery complaints posts. Is time for me to catch some sleep. Let it be a new day again when I wake up. Goodnight.

I love you. But my love for you have to stop. Cannot love you anymore knowing you don't love me.

Foolish of me, too late to cry. Is like wishing for rain in the desert.

But no, I am not going to wish for you already. This has to stop tonight. Have to erase you off my mind. Goodbye lover boy.

My friends who knows me most know that I am always not the one initiating to call them or text them. I been this way since primary school. I guess I can change this. Is always them who call me and ask me out.

My friends, thank you.
So thankful to have each one of you.

Let Loose

Baby, its over, we both know, lets go forward.
I love you, but in a different way, I love you, forever.
Now that we've come to the end of a story and I know that it's gonna be hard for me.
Might hurt some, but not too much, but I gotta let it wait.
As the world turns around and we go different places, new things, new dreams, new faces.
Wanna shake up, when we break up, but we keep our memories.


Cuz I know you can't stay, so I won't be waiting, anticipating for the fall.
We had our time, baby, so I won't be waiting, anticipating for the call


Baby, it's better, and I want you, to be happy.
Sometimes people find that it's so hard just to say goodbye.
Then easy the more and the more you try.
So there'll be cheating, better save it, but not me and my boy.

 We understand that we're friends and it just ain't working, no point in the constant fighting.
So when we go nuts, for a minute, and admit that we're just not in it.