I need someone who is always there. Someone who cares about how I feel, the depth of my sorrows, the reasons why I am so emotional about love.

Someone who thinks about consequence, who puts my feeling before themselves. One who is willing to put extra efforts go extra miles just for that smile.

Someone who cares to learn about you, thoroughly.

Someone who wants to know me. He/she must share the same goal as I, who have the same beliefs and has the same culture.

But I believe this person do not exist, it is not possible because everybody is just like me, wishing for the same things in their life.

Credits to kkrstng.tumblr.com

0% faith.

Where to buy faith.

I am tired of trying to fit in where I dont belong. Maybe I just want to blend in and carry on with life.

I must learn not to ask for more, from myself, the boyfriend, friends and family. I guess we should be be contended. Well, easier said than done huh. We, I will get used to it. Then comes to a point that we dont care, we take each other for granted.

But I dont want to take you for granted, I need you more then you ever know. Just breathe, abrie, things will turn better.

Two papers down, two on wednesday and last on friday. Gave Isetan and Famous Amos a miss cause schedules crash. NEED.A.JOB.TO.SPON.MY.HK.TRIP.

Life’s all about moments of impact and how they change our lives forever. What if one day we can no longer remember any of them?

I vowed to love you and no matter what challenges might carry us apart, we will always find a way back to each other.

Financial Management and Forecasting

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First paper really died on the spot. Calculated my (agar agar ) marks which I fail. 49/100. But what the piang, is over already so just look forward. Just a week more. Looking for part time jobs now, hopefully the people reply me back. Hk on the 10th! Korea(Maybe) during Christmas!

Meantime, taking many driving lessons in the sept holidays! If everything goes smoothly, TP first week of November!

Zooooom zoom

Wednesday already. Thursday driving then studying all the way. Friday first paper. Just anyhow whack only, dont care.

On the happier side, been whatsapping with Sharon. Happy is me.

Shoulder length or keep long my hair?

So tempted to chop chop my hair, not like it is very long now tho. Hurrrrrrrrrrrr.

Only can concentrate at night. Well, better in the night. Been up doing my notes after 12midnight.

Met my dear Keith on friday after so long. Good talk with him, always. Is good to have a guy good friend where you can be comfortable with him and able to talk to him about anything. Thanks for all your advice and for listening to me.

Out with my mama over the weekends, spent one whole day eating and eating and eating non stop. Snacking unhealthy. Bought so many food now the cupboard and fridge is so tempting. Out to study later with my lovely but annoying teammates. 4 more days till my first paper which I barely pass and understand. Wish me luck that I know how to calculate.

School's out

Mentally drained the past whole week. So not myself.

Feels out of place.

My lovely teammates.

Self-declare no school tomorrow cause I have decided to skip lectures. Just two more days of school.

But heading to ACC to study like a nerd. 6 hours of studying then driving! Cant believe I can actually move that machine to and fro Tampines > Bedok > Ubiiiiiiii. & think that I am driving fast at a speed of only 40km/h. Joke.

Study date for the whole of this week and next. 5 papers wo lai le!

Caught this movie with the family. Been so long since we watched it together, as a family. The movie was pretty retarded. The beginning was really a drag. But Daniel Craig was some hot stuff. Hot body. Drooooooooolz.

Back to school, shall do some studying. This is what I call weekends. I really had a good fri sat sun.

Stalk me on twitter! {:

Claudia got cut off by mx, even after 3 tries. PHAILLLLLLLLLLLLLL.

Finally a decent Friday and Saturday this week.

Whole of friday was simply spent with my happy bunch of classmates. Done and got over all the presentations and projects. 6 fucking projects we all chiong and suffered a lot. Especially all the brain cells.

Been craving fro Just Acia for too long so headed down to DG's outlet but sucks cause the ice cream flavors very limited. Luckily they had the soft ice cream.

Far East for some cheap mani which was good. But my colour was sucky. The guys walked the whole of FEP when we are barely done with one level. But still patiently waited for us to be done. Such nice guys and a good source of entertainment. They even helped to hold the shopping bags. Plus points. HAHAHA

Chilled out a Burger King a little before we left. Next will be more shopping and steamboat. Cant wait. Like party like exams is over when is 2 weeks from now.

Saturday spent with the fav boy and had Kim Gary for lunch. Baked rice like a shiok. Took a walk around MBS shopping mall with his family and had durians at geylang. Very satisfied tummy the past two days.

Last week of school then the exams. Time to study for the end sem exams.

YES FINALLY DONE WITH ALL 6 PROJECTS. NO MORE STAYING BACK IN SCHOOL TILL LATE CHIONGING PROJECTS FOR THIS SEM. CAN YOU FEEL MY HAPPINESS?!

In approximately 11hours to freedom from projects. Cant wait.

One day job at Marina Bay Financial Centre. Easy job and easy money. Watched NDP Parade on screens and through the windows of the office. Actually I only paid attention to the fireworks. I was at the 45th level of the building. View is simply spectacular. Fireworks infront of me and spammed the camera for the pictures, some turn out to be pretty.

After work walked to MBS to meet my teammates. They never fail to put a smile on my face. Suppose to stay over and head the x pool in the morning but sigh, the sister decided to vomit blood. No stayover no swimming in the x pool. And the silly Mad took ALL the mini alcohol out and start snapping photos without knowing it will be charge once is move or taken out. Heng sai they didnt charge her. Ting rui doing 7 wonders. Worse nightmare. All in one national day. No projects on that day just all my happy people.

Including this boy of my.

"I realized that none of my great days in life matter without you. You’re the one I want next to me when my dreams come true. You’re the one I want next to me if they don’t. As long as I have you, nothing else matters."

But here I am and I can't seem to see straight
But I'm too numb to feel right now
And here I am watching the clock that's ticking away my time
I'm too numb to feel right now

Just tonight I will stay
And we'll throw it all away
When the light hits your eyes
It's telling me I'm right
And if I, I am through
It's all because of you
Just tonight

This week doesnt seem to past as fast, somehow. Drowning, camping in school lab to finish up projects. Another 2/3 of security down! Just a week later and I am officially done with all SIX projects. So much sleep and suffering I have lost over the month. Cant wait, cause then I have some space for breathing.

Meanwhile ;

• I got a one day temp job at MBFC! Miss working there.
• I am trying to think positive about people, school and everything.
• And two more weeks of 2.1 and I am fucking done and over with it. No words can explain how glad I am to get over this semester.

Been on the same page of my book for nearly 3 hours. Nothing seems to go in. Started playing the fb app maple story and is so cute!

Shall attempt to read through once and watch my PLL.

Life has been messy. My life has been messy. Everything everywhere, projects all half done, trust issues, girls' issues. Sometimes, I dont know who to trust. Sometimes you have to stand firm on your decision, you choose your own path. Follow your heart I guess?

Yesterday was really one hell of the day which I wont allow myself to repeat again. I love you, WC.