we are indecisive so when we think we have made up our mind the need to over articulate and speak about it becomes unbearable.

So my sexy came back and now is back in aussie. Still love you the same even your butt had gotten more erm, perky. Eat like a pig with the bunch of people up there together with the two lovebirds. Genting bkk or aussie with these bunch again when my sexy comes back.

“The best part of having a relationship is getting to call the person or lay down next to them and tell them all the crazy things that happened to you all day long. And in the end that’s what it’s about. It’s not about the sex, it’s not about the money that they give you or whatever. It’s not about how good-looking they are. It’s about listening to each other talk about nothing and everything. It’s about sitting next to each other doing completely nothing and yet the time spent together means everything.”

Is hard to say what in deep in your heart, sometime what you really mean and feel. Friends sometimes just wont understand. They are there to listen and whine. I guess, that is good enough. Headache from school.

I love you, from the bottom of my heart. Is sweet when I know you are there to assure me for everything. From me going balding, saggy cheeks, paranoia, all my flaws. You are able to accept me for I am. You are worth the while.

Currently:
1. Thinking of what to wear to school tmr, or rather what to match with what outfit.
2. Staring into space
3. Missing sharon ng qian yi 'cause she is leaving in a tiny bit.
4. Hopefully everything goes well and smoothly for my boy. He's been worried over his cutli prac.

Pretty little things in life.

My boyf.
Having friends who cares for me.
Food.

Homecook dinner with the boy. Well, he cook I wash up. I cleared most of the minced meat egg. Satisfied tummy!

Work work work in progress. Money have to reproduce, bank account depleting fast. Check my tweets to stalk me! &that is the 8k seat I am sitting on. 8k lehhhh!

Maybe I just thought I was enough, apparently not. Is it cause I am not trying hard enough? Or you just simply gave up on me. Maybe I should learn not to give anymore promises, cause I always seem to let everybody down. Or maybe is cause I gave the wrong impression. I dont know. I tried, that is all I can say. Dont everyone else say that too? I cant simply 'fuck it, fuck you'
"When no one makes any promises. Then will there truly be no disappointment" Right Keith?

I miss my boy, I miss sharon, I miss Keith, I miss my close friends. Someone who is comfortable to talk too. Thoughts keep staying in my head and I cant get it out. Cant find the effing words to say, cant describe how I am feeling. Well, we wear masks and put up a strong front every morning right?

Just tell me all this shall pass, too?

The view from the office is kinda 'wow'.
I like the black and white picture better. Did I mention that this company is effing rich? who pays for a 20k coffee machine, 1.2k for a chair, >8k for sofas? 11 floors own by them in MBFC. Eye opener for me, definitely. Related to my course to. Pretty amazing except the ______. High speed lifts are horrible, for me. Ears always get block which is so annoying.

Swiss bake for lunch, which was delivered to us! Which also made me but my tongue and is has a lump on it.


Rosti for lunch the other day instead of toast box!

Waking up at almost 7am/6am in the morning. I can do this. Just another 3 days to go. Money money money come to mama.

Staying, with you.

Holding on.

Giving my all.

All out.

Scoring work @ CCAB @ 845 > Bugis with @lipstouched > Lavender to collect passport(#epic fail) > OC for some coffee bean > Typo guy @ wisma > FEP for awesome 5 bucks mani ( now I have purple nails > Fish&Co for Julia's 19th dinner > Acid Bar for Singapore Sling > Bedok 85 with the boy for supper.

Finally home.

Explains a lot why am I tired. Work + briefing tmr at MBFC @ 8am!

"If you look inside a girl, you would see how much she really cries, you would find so many secrets and lots of lies. But what you will really see is how hard it is to stay so strong when nothing is right, and everything is wrong."

I want to sit by the breakwater and watch the sunset with you. Sunset is beautiful, esp if the sky is orange. Perfect atmosphere, no one else but here in your arms.

Tumblr really amuses me.

“Sometimes you just want to put other people’s happiness before yours because you love them, because they deserve it. Sometimes you want to go out of your way for other people just because you know that it’s important that they get a chance to smile once in a while.”

Sharon is happy with her boy too.

Landed myself in a job which offer me 8bucks per hour thanks to C! Plus 3 day scoring to do. Money money coming in. This coming week gonna be hell. With so many celebrations going on and work. Retail therapy with my mama tomorrow to pamper myself. Money have been rather tight. Spending money like water. Then again, everything have been rather smooth for that I have to thank someone up there.

“People think they know you. They think they know how you’re handling a situation. But the truth is, no one knows. No one knows what happens after you leave them, when you’re lying in bed or sitting over your breakfast alone and all you want to do is cry or scream. They don’t know what’s going on inside your head - the mind-numbing cocktail of anger and sadness and guilt. This isn’t their fault. They just don’t know. And so they pretend and they say you’re doing great when you’re really not. And this makes everyone feel better. Everybody but you.”

Every relationship is messed up, but what makes it perfect is if you still wanna be there when things really suck.

The rest of the days in Shanghai.
Boy, I do miss the weather there.
And the awesome pasta there.
































"What’s worse than wanting something you can’t have? It’s not knowing what you want. Wishing on all the stars in the sky for the answers to your questions, for something to believe in; someone to hold. Having absolutely no control over yourself, being caught up in a place you wish you were miles away from. Being stuck somewhere between the past and the future, nowhere near where you should be - in the present. Stuck in yesterdays and tomorrows, so far from home, far from everything you know and love. The uncertainty could just about tear you to bits."