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Really, I shouldnt expect anything cause every time I do, I always see myself crashing, see my hopes dying. Wishful thinking. Never good enough in the first place. When was the last time I keep losing sleep. Why does it keep happening again and again. I get cold feet and maybe I shouldnt let my guard down in the first place. I miss you. Chocolates make me happy. &I found out how much i weigh today and I dont like what I see.

On a happier note, mama finally getting somethings done. Like renovate the house a little so that I could have a room to call me own after 7 years of waiting. New bed frame, study table, cozy corner that I plan to have if there is enough space. My room gonna be my new secret hideout. Now, what colour should my room be...