Fav Song

Ever since I heard the cover just a dream from Joseph Vincent and Jason Chen from wc's phone at the park, fell in love with the song immediately.

And is been my all time fav song.

I was at the top and I now it's like I'm in the basement

Number one spot and now she found her a replacement

I swear now I can't take it, knowing somebody's got my baby

And now you ain't around, baby I can't think

I shoulda put it down, shoulda got that ring

Cuz I can still feel it in the air

See her pretty face run my fingers through her hair

A.

I am the typical girl that is not much different from the rest. Except the fact I burp and fart in front of you without feeling pai seh or shy. Friends who know me, they should experience it before, esp all my loud burps. My family is not complete, no I am not complaining about it. Cause so long both my parents is happy and importantly, my mother I am happy for them. Even if it mean that they have to remarry. I can say I am not dependent on my parents,independent in certain ways but once in a while I would like to depend on my mother. My mother have been strong for too long and I know is not easy bringing me and my both brothers up. I dont need materialistic things to make me happy. I just need love and the quality time to make me happy. I dont need fancy dates. I rather talk a walk in the park and chilling at the breakwater. I rather have tofu egg and rice then to have all the expensive meals at some high class restaurant. I have trust issues, I trust people to easily and it gets back at me. I am learning how to read people, read between the lines. I drift away from people very quickly too cause I am not the friend that would take initiative (Something I am gonna improve this year). I dont want to push my friends away. I dont want to push my boyfriend away. I am glad there are good friends who stayed by my side no matter how things turn out. I have my awkward silence, just like a awkward turtle.

Thank you, my friends who love me no matter what I have become and stayed with me.

fail colour

I highlighted my hair purple yesterday. Was really hoping the colour would come out but the end results was not that obvious. But there was only a little. Should have go for red. But at least I tried purple without bleaching.

I really wanted the purple highlights to come out so badly.

We are dying from overthinking. We are slowly killing ourselves by thinking about everything. Think. Think. Think. You can never trust the human mind anyway. It’s a death trap

Forever

You can't miss forever. 

No matter how close forever feels right now. 

You can't hurt forever. 

Even if your heart whispers in your ear and tries to convince you otherwise. 

You can't bleed forever. 

Sooner or later, you will either die or live. 

Neither of us can do anything for forever. 

Because forever passed away, long ago.

definition of a period

So every month you lay an egg, and if there’s no sexual intercourse the lining of your uterus goes *makes weird washing machine noise* and comes out like a waterfall of blood causing the egg you layed to wash out with it

Robin Williams

I used to think the worst thing in life was to end up all alone. It’s not. The worst thing in life, is to end up with people who make you feel all alone.

Grey’s Anatomy

It doesn’t matter how tough we are, trauma always leaves a scar. It follows us home, it changes our lives. Trauma messes everybody up, but maybe that’s the point. All the pain and the fear and the crap, maybe going through all that is what keeps us moving forward. It’s what pushes us. Maybe we have to get a little messed up before we can step up.

Thoughts

Shall list down 16 events happen in 2011 since is the 16 Jan today.

1. Fail to celebrate 2011 New Year with WC but on the day I become WC's girl
2. Legal 18 and hitting the clubs legally.
3. Spending time with my half sister. And really hoping for the best for her. Cause I feel that as she grows, things will get complicated.
   
4. Fail my TP with 2 immediate failures and a total of 32 demerit points. Seriously I fail at driving.
5. Worked at BHP, a mining company. The office was located at MBFC and the view from there is just awesome.
6. Been to China with WC and his family! Few months together and went on a holiday! Then hk in oct again!
7. My
   Domestic helper went back to Indonesia and never came back
8. Genting trip with Keith and gang
9. Sharon came back and for once staying till feb.
10. Still keeping in touch with my primary school besties.
11. Korea trip with my family this time! 
12. Fluff died on the 17th sept. was there when she had her very last breath.
13. Got an iphone white 4S and haven drop it yet!
14. Trust issues with friends. Like everybody says, you got to earn trust.
15. Ups and down in my relationship but glad to say that all is good now with my fav boy. And trying to learn how to be a better girlf.
16. Give up my intern to Florida cause of my mama, money issues and my fav boy. But I dont regret it at all.

I think I still can list more but my room light bulb decided to blow so typing all this only in a study table lamp. So, goodnight. Half way through January 2012, so far so good. 

Lepak week

Alvin's 23rd lunch at Kim Gary! Birthday lunch with a mini chocolate cake. Oldest and the smartest among all of us! Poor julia suffering from some horrible illness and missed out two weeks of school. So much change and drama we have been through together. All the chionging project and bitching about lecturers. Hopefully this year goes smoothly. 2012 will be good cause it has my favorite number in it.

Shopping with this naughty girl and dearest mama at town. Buay tahan her hao lian attitude, walked past anyone die die must wave at them if not she would stop and stare at the strangers. In a nicer way, friendly. She is also one sticky girl. What can I say, like sister like sister?

School was a drag on thursday, shall not elaborate further.

My friday was pretty exciting. Met my sexy @sharonishungry and @smeleemonkey at town for some cny shopping. Correction, just accompany them to shop and catch up on each other's life. Tried Ramen Play for the first time. Dropped by Sour Sally to say hello to V.han and Joleen! And got a free yogurt in return! was too full for dessert but finished it in the end. Fat.Die.Me.

Bumped into ws and last minute plan to meet up! Chilled all the way at block 718 with the primary school besties and it was really good, to be able to feel so comfortable and talk about anything. Talk cock and laughed at the times when we were in primary school.

Then town again with @ClaudiaTYB and @IVYchubbyGIRLZ for some nails painting which failed cause they didnt had enough manicurist and they was rushing us. Cheap thrills @Scape and Far East. OH yes, couple wear with this @ClaudiaTYB today! Eat like free again. First was Koi then Chippy's Hot dog and mash then chi zhar reunion dinner (which was bo liao) then prata for supper! Fat.Die.Me.Again.

But this week was good, met up with most of my happy pills and some lesson learnt, even tho I learnt the hard way. Time to get back on track, back to projects and school.

Just a month to V's day, which means I am turning 19 and TP's coming.

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Maybe I should stay away a while, unstick myself to you. I have to try. 

I love you, my dear. I have not been the best girlf to you. Guilty as charged. 

Lepak One Corner

Awesome view and windy at Gardens By The Bay.

Buffaloes wings at Jerry's BBQ! This only had three levels. Haven mastered to tank the spicy food so tried the level 1 and is sweet instead of spicy and is good! Ordered some shredded pork and goodness, the pork is tender and just simply shiok. 

School have been slack this week cause lectures and tutorials have been cancel. Still in holiday mood since this sem started and time really just fly pass. Except Space Planning Module which is sucking me dry. Surprisingly this sem aint as packed as last sem but still busy with all the deadlines. Left with Space Planning and Contract. 

Go go go.

Spent some good quality time with the boyfriend today. I always choose quality time with boyfriend over anything. I am sticky like that.❤ 

Plans for tomorrow would be school just for a CDS project review and some shopping with mama!

Forever And Always

Dont give up on me, dont give up on us. I find myself missing you more than ever. Even when you're here, I still miss you like crazy.

I, I want you forever, forever and always

Through the good and the bad and the ugly 

We'll grow old together

Forever and always

Stay, there forever, forever and always

Through the good and the bad and the ugly

We'll grow old together, and always remember

Whether rich or for poor or for better

We'll still love each other, forever and always

Change, hopefully.

Will I ever be pretty enough.
Will I ever be skinny enough.
Will I ever be smart enough.

Will I ever be enough for you?

Week 37

I am done with week 1 of term 2, week 37 of sem 2.2. Time passing way too fast, in school or with friends. I am not going let to zoom pass me. I want to cherish every moment of my youth.

And yesterday was Mr Husni's last day. One less hot teacher around.

TP's Open House today which means kope helium balloons. Carried 3 balloons around school today and boyf and tim ate helium. The results was epic.

Spend some good quality time with the boy and miss him already. Looking at our schedules ahead, we are going to have a busy 2.2. Gonna crash now and TGIF everybody.

Mr Seow wc

The guy who never fails to do anything he can to make me happy. When I said I was red and high, you rushed down. When I was leaving for korea, you fetch me to the airport. Touchdown with a horrible nausea, brought me to see the doc and drove me home. Took the iniative to buy chai xim and wanted to cook porridge for me. Offered to cook me spaghetti when I said I wanted to eat.

Now you're sick, all I do is just sit here and do nothing. Cause sometimes I feel that I am helpless and cant make anything to make you feel better. Please recover soon. I know you cant afford to be sick.

Did I mention I spent my new years' eve on my bed blowing my nose off and partying with tissue papers. First time I fell so ill. Down with a high fever after like so many years. Sick for the 6th consecutive day. Nonetheless, the boy came down to find me, even if it is for a while, it was warm. It was nice to be in his arms. A place I rather choose to be then anywhere else. 

Korea - Seoul

Reach Shanghai airport for a stopover before going to korea! The whole tour group was so lost on where to go. Horrible way finding. Airport studies all acting up.

Skip to the second day since the first day was nothing much except we slept on the floor in the resort over there!

Second day was packed with loaded places and scenery!

Visited the winter scenery some coast for the seafood.

Then when up the mountains by a cable car. Was freezing at the top, my fingers and toes literally froze up. 

Went to a different place for some cheese making, goat feeding and playing donut slides!

Roamed the streets at some random night

Third day was spent in the ski resort and theme park! Yes, and the day where we finally had bbq pork and not steamboat!

 Forth day was also packed with crazy goodness.
Kim chi, wearing the korean traditional clothes, visitinng some jewelry shop, ginseng shop and mini shopping!

 THIS WAFFLES IS AWESOME. BEST WAFFLES I HAD SO FAR.

Ice sculptures that froze up beautifully. 

 While waiting for dinner, we explored some bread shop. They got pretty christmas cakes.

 Ginseng chicken for dinner! They served us one chicken each!

It was the forth day and was also christmas day,so me and mama roamed a little further from the hotel wanting to find a place to countdown. Apparently the streets was quiet and though there was traffic but no one countdown or shouted merry christmas. Did some midnight shopping and walk around before heading back to the hotel where we took pictures with chritsmas tree. How pathetic. 

This is end of Seoul, Jeju post will be up soon!

A little late, but Merry Christmas and Happy New Year. X