We hold each other, in the darkness, it doesn’t make the darkness go away. The bad things are still out there. The nightmares still walking. When we hold each other we feel not safe, but better. “It’s all right” we whisper, “I’m here, I love you.” and we lie: “I’ll never leave you.” For just a moment or two the darkness doesn’t seem so bad.

beeeeesehhhhh

Flooded with all projects, school, last driving lesson before my TP, weekends work. Almost through week 4 of school and still feeling the holiday mood with the Christmas decorations all around. Been through 2.1, bring it on 2.2

Battling with all my assignments in progress and love my boyf for the never ending encouragement to pull me through.

11.11.11

Wouldnt have it any other way. I had a awesome 11.11.11 11:11am with my teammates. <3

Out of the box

I guess I will have to learn to take it slow and be thoughtful of the other party. I should put myself in his shoes too, but I cant help if my thoughts starts to wonder on its own. Hate it when my mind is saturated with thoughts.

1am soon, sleep now and get ready for a battle at work later on with Pinoys, China and rich local stuck up people!

When it hurts more than it shows.

School is good this week cause is only a three day school. Third week of school and projects is slowly creeping on all of us. I dont like it. TP next thurs which I am really scared. I dont want to fail but I dont expect myself to pass.

Worry this and that, too many things on my mind. Can I just fast forward to the holidays next month?

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My insecurities acting up and I just can't shut it out. What I need is more then assurance. I need to know that you feel the same way as I do. Because I need you more than I ever do. It scares me when I think about it. I have already gotten so attached to you I don't know how to make it on my own.

Chop it off

Words meet heartbeat

What I been up to:

10th with this boy at a jap restaurant at Bedok Point cause the sushi restaurant I wanted to go was closed. ):

GTR truns 19th on the 1st November!

Cleaned up all this and threw away 2 big bags of unwanted shoes, rearrange the shoes, from sneakers to heels to flatforms and slippers. Then cleaned up the kitchen and the best part was that we did it during the night. Almost midnight. Me and my mama ai zai. 

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Today was so loser cause I went to school thinking was a 9am lesson which turn out to be a 10am lesson. Lost my fav ring in school too. But cheers to the weekends! Feels so damn good to have no school on a friday, totally my rest day. Long weekend ahead even though is filled up work. 

YES OR NO

But I cant bear to leave my boy, call me stupid, yes.

avatarrrrrr

The night where I first went to Avatar,

 See how my primary school bestie get drunk on 2 cups of alcohol and vomited.

 See how a bunch of brothers really close and how gentlemanly they are. They really protect you even though we barely know each other. 

See drunktards on the looooose.

Ran in heels for the bus to end the night. 

Happy birthday Mr RyanLucasWarner!

> 24 hours

If I really could chop chop you or clone you. Then everyone would have a piece of you. Then I wont feel like there is no time for me.

Gonna be a difficult semester balancing you, work, school and friends together.

Please please can I have more than 24 hours a day. Is not enough for me. I miss quality time with you, you and just you.

Quote from E's blog

"I really don't know how you can be so patient with me when I'm always throwing tantrums. It feels absolutely amazing to have someone who loves you so much that he accepts you entirely flaws and all."

TGIF - Tomorrow Got Indian Festival

This week is great because I get two days off! Officially there is no school on friday but there is training which I dont know if I should go back for it. My timetable contradicts Cindy's which is not good, cause I am too lazy to go for training if she doesnt go.
Had my H.U interview today which I kinda screwed up a little. At least I gave myself a chance to be selected.

Gonna meet my primary school friends for some partying and to celebrate ryan birthday and tomorrow spending time with my baby sister and the boyfriend.

Happy Deepavali yo!

(So)ul What

Headed to Soul with happy people together with the boyfriend! Starting was really sucky, small dance floor, no locker, not much people, sat and stone fore a good hour! Opened bottle, drank a little then just head down to dance the night away! Happening night and saw so many familiar faces! 

Die, me. Keep wanting to party but is so tiring! 

First (il)legal clubs

Met Claudia for some HTHT, you are stronger than you know, strong than all of us. Cheap thrills at bugis area plus Koi! Walked to The Cathay and chilled and the steps where we bumped into Ivy! Rough patches my girls seems to be going through. 

Met the two hotties, boyf and Tim after that and heading down to Titanium Thai club with mama and friends! Free entry and drinks and importantly, eye opener! First time going to a Thai Disco. Jumped to a gigolo club at GaGa after that!This is was the ultimate and wowwwwww. Best thing was with my mama and all her friends together with my boyf and tim! All jaw dropped. Left around 330, couldnt see the China ladies hanging flowers for the guys there! 

That was my last week of holidays ladies' night.

So today whole day spent time with En En! Brough her to eXplorerKids to play! The perks of having a baby in the family. It brings joy, the way she react and sticks to me. Meet my little baby sister.