GENTING GETAWAY

Short trip to genting with dearest keith, qing, el and xuan. Our first trip together which I almost got bounced again cause of my passport photo. Chicken backside but I had a blast over there with them. Literally laughed till I drop and did all sorts of ridiculous stuff you can ever imagine. Dirty little secrets out in the room. First day was spent roaming all around the place and Kenny Roger's for lunch! The Mac and cheese, shiok balls plus is cheaper there, the only fast food cheap there. The night basically just chilled in the room and at Starbucks. Sang K till all our voices got deep.

Weather there is simply perfect.

Second day failed badly, woke up at 3pm which was supposedly to wake at 10. Gave Mo Gu Yuan a miss. Chop chop Marybrown for late lunch and off to the theme park! Viking, space shot (damn shiok ride of all), cockscrew, human flyer(?) and all time fav bumper cars! A last minute decision to do a fish spa with Qing! First time and it tickles!

Tonned the last night playing Indian Poker and with a very lousy breakfast buffet then home sweet home!

Guilty pleasures

If you know what I mean. Title says it all. At such a ungodly timing.
Almost 3am in the morning and I got driving lesson later on follow by a whole day catching up session with Sharon and gang.

Dear Fluff

Been a week since Fluff left, I miss you dearly. You are always the greedy one, greedy for food only. It was so easy to catch you back whenever you jump down the cage. All I have to do was to shake the apple treats and you came running back. I really hope Heaven is treating you well together with Chip and the naughty Pepper.
I kept you for ten whole years, time flies. Be happy up there, Fluff.

Choices

I dont know what is stopping me or making me think twice about this job - another sales promoter job. Need more time and money.

In your touch

Maybe is a sickness, praying on my weakness

Having a calender by the side of the study table makes my time management so much better. Sorts out all the things I have schedule and planned.

Past three days spent with the boyfriend and his gay partnerS (with a capital S, yes) in crime. Stayed over two days at his place with his comfortable silk bed with his hands holding me. Felt loved. Your every little actions means a lot to me. Small talks and htht, deeper as we go. Never felt happier with you. ♥

Lunch at DTF and durian snow ice for dessert with the happy people after their BTT on Wednesday! Which one of them failed.Holidays is good and been enjoying most of it.

Busy week ahead and next! Genting trip soon with Keith and gang!

RIP my beloved Fluff.

"You know when I realized I loved him? It was when I realized that anything that ever happened, good or bad, I wanted to tell him about. He was the first person I wanted to know, and I couldn’t wait to tell him, and talk to him, and listen to him and it’s like I love learning new things every time I talk to him."

There is this construction going on just outside my window and the drilling is annoying me. So want to to camp at the boyfriend's place.

Lunch at Ion Itacho Sushi and shopping with the dearest boy at town today. He and his sashimi cravings. Bumped into so many familiar faces everywhere. Went to see see at H&M was meh, prefer F21 better. Got my bag but my slippers had no size, need a new slippers so badly. Especially a waterproof one instead of my velvet slippers.

Weather was good too, today. Midnight MJ at Tim's house later on then got to accompany mama to her office then driving. Plus like maybe a nap in between, hopefully I can survive.

Chalet on monday with the TPVB people, remove sopts on tuesday, and driving lesson + finally meeting the boy after so long. I guess I can get used to it. Have not been htht with him and I missed it.

When it comes to 9/11 or Mid Autumn Festival or Elections I really dont give a shoot about it. Somehow it doesnt bother me much. Indifferent or many just dont sympathize them or care about the general polities around.

And this is bad.

Week one of holiday almost down. Slow down please, I dont want to go back to school.

Cause it sucks big time.

Pictures from my brother's birthday to wild girls night to my adorable baby sister.

Prove my doubts wrong. I cant help but to feel this way.

Bumped. Because it always felt like you didnt make plans with me. How am I suppose to feel?

Weekends for once was real productive - in terms of money and time spend. Working as a promoter near my place. But 8 hours shift alone on weekends a bit ._.

Dinner with my boy after work makes me happy. Saturday dinner at Pan Pacific! Some jap resturant then went to Swensens for some durian supreme ice cream. Sat was the best dinner date with him and his family ever. I could use more dinner date like these. Felt warm inside.

Sunday work again, jap food for lunch then dinner at Aijsen with the boy again. Jap food manic. Thinking if I should get another job over the holidays in the weekdays. Work my ass off for kaching.

Definitely is a stay home monday for me. So tired of the standing and talking to the customers. I deserve a good rest, shall give a morning call to the boy in about 4 hours time.

Gonna burn all my weekends away. Literally all my weekends. Work standard from 12-8.

Starting from tomorrow and till Jan'12.

Follow me on twitter to stalk me {:

I need someone who is always there. Someone who cares about how I feel, the depth of my sorrows, the reasons why I am so emotional about love.

Someone who thinks about consequence, who puts my feeling before themselves. One who is willing to put extra efforts go extra miles just for that smile.

Someone who cares to learn about you, thoroughly.

Someone who wants to know me. He/she must share the same goal as I, who have the same beliefs and has the same culture.

But I believe this person do not exist, it is not possible because everybody is just like me, wishing for the same things in their life.

Credits to kkrstng.tumblr.com

0% faith.

Where to buy faith.

I am tired of trying to fit in where I dont belong. Maybe I just want to blend in and carry on with life.

I must learn not to ask for more, from myself, the boyfriend, friends and family. I guess we should be be contended. Well, easier said than done huh. We, I will get used to it. Then comes to a point that we dont care, we take each other for granted.

But I dont want to take you for granted, I need you more then you ever know. Just breathe, abrie, things will turn better.

Two papers down, two on wednesday and last on friday. Gave Isetan and Famous Amos a miss cause schedules crash. NEED.A.JOB.TO.SPON.MY.HK.TRIP.

Life’s all about moments of impact and how they change our lives forever. What if one day we can no longer remember any of them?

I vowed to love you and no matter what challenges might carry us apart, we will always find a way back to each other.

Financial Management and Forecasting

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First paper really died on the spot. Calculated my (agar agar ) marks which I fail. 49/100. But what the piang, is over already so just look forward. Just a week more. Looking for part time jobs now, hopefully the people reply me back. Hk on the 10th! Korea(Maybe) during Christmas!

Meantime, taking many driving lessons in the sept holidays! If everything goes smoothly, TP first week of November!

Zooooom zoom

Wednesday already. Thursday driving then studying all the way. Friday first paper. Just anyhow whack only, dont care.

On the happier side, been whatsapping with Sharon. Happy is me.

Shoulder length or keep long my hair?

So tempted to chop chop my hair, not like it is very long now tho. Hurrrrrrrrrrrr.

Only can concentrate at night. Well, better in the night. Been up doing my notes after 12midnight.

Met my dear Keith on friday after so long. Good talk with him, always. Is good to have a guy good friend where you can be comfortable with him and able to talk to him about anything. Thanks for all your advice and for listening to me.

Out with my mama over the weekends, spent one whole day eating and eating and eating non stop. Snacking unhealthy. Bought so many food now the cupboard and fridge is so tempting. Out to study later with my lovely but annoying teammates. 4 more days till my first paper which I barely pass and understand. Wish me luck that I know how to calculate.

School's out

Mentally drained the past whole week. So not myself.

Feels out of place.

My lovely teammates.

Self-declare no school tomorrow cause I have decided to skip lectures. Just two more days of school.

But heading to ACC to study like a nerd. 6 hours of studying then driving! Cant believe I can actually move that machine to and fro Tampines > Bedok > Ubiiiiiiii. & think that I am driving fast at a speed of only 40km/h. Joke.

Study date for the whole of this week and next. 5 papers wo lai le!

Caught this movie with the family. Been so long since we watched it together, as a family. The movie was pretty retarded. The beginning was really a drag. But Daniel Craig was some hot stuff. Hot body. Drooooooooolz.

Back to school, shall do some studying. This is what I call weekends. I really had a good fri sat sun.

Stalk me on twitter! {:

Claudia got cut off by mx, even after 3 tries. PHAILLLLLLLLLLLLLL.

Finally a decent Friday and Saturday this week.

Whole of friday was simply spent with my happy bunch of classmates. Done and got over all the presentations and projects. 6 fucking projects we all chiong and suffered a lot. Especially all the brain cells.

Been craving fro Just Acia for too long so headed down to DG's outlet but sucks cause the ice cream flavors very limited. Luckily they had the soft ice cream.

Far East for some cheap mani which was good. But my colour was sucky. The guys walked the whole of FEP when we are barely done with one level. But still patiently waited for us to be done. Such nice guys and a good source of entertainment. They even helped to hold the shopping bags. Plus points. HAHAHA

Chilled out a Burger King a little before we left. Next will be more shopping and steamboat. Cant wait. Like party like exams is over when is 2 weeks from now.

Saturday spent with the fav boy and had Kim Gary for lunch. Baked rice like a shiok. Took a walk around MBS shopping mall with his family and had durians at geylang. Very satisfied tummy the past two days.

Last week of school then the exams. Time to study for the end sem exams.

YES FINALLY DONE WITH ALL 6 PROJECTS. NO MORE STAYING BACK IN SCHOOL TILL LATE CHIONGING PROJECTS FOR THIS SEM. CAN YOU FEEL MY HAPPINESS?!

In approximately 11hours to freedom from projects. Cant wait.

One day job at Marina Bay Financial Centre. Easy job and easy money. Watched NDP Parade on screens and through the windows of the office. Actually I only paid attention to the fireworks. I was at the 45th level of the building. View is simply spectacular. Fireworks infront of me and spammed the camera for the pictures, some turn out to be pretty.

After work walked to MBS to meet my teammates. They never fail to put a smile on my face. Suppose to stay over and head the x pool in the morning but sigh, the sister decided to vomit blood. No stayover no swimming in the x pool. And the silly Mad took ALL the mini alcohol out and start snapping photos without knowing it will be charge once is move or taken out. Heng sai they didnt charge her. Ting rui doing 7 wonders. Worse nightmare. All in one national day. No projects on that day just all my happy people.

Including this boy of my.

"I realized that none of my great days in life matter without you. You’re the one I want next to me when my dreams come true. You’re the one I want next to me if they don’t. As long as I have you, nothing else matters."

But here I am and I can't seem to see straight
But I'm too numb to feel right now
And here I am watching the clock that's ticking away my time
I'm too numb to feel right now

Just tonight I will stay
And we'll throw it all away
When the light hits your eyes
It's telling me I'm right
And if I, I am through
It's all because of you
Just tonight

This week doesnt seem to past as fast, somehow. Drowning, camping in school lab to finish up projects. Another 2/3 of security down! Just a week later and I am officially done with all SIX projects. So much sleep and suffering I have lost over the month. Cant wait, cause then I have some space for breathing.

Meanwhile ;

• I got a one day temp job at MBFC! Miss working there.
• I am trying to think positive about people, school and everything.
• And two more weeks of 2.1 and I am fucking done and over with it. No words can explain how glad I am to get over this semester.

Been on the same page of my book for nearly 3 hours. Nothing seems to go in. Started playing the fb app maple story and is so cute!

Shall attempt to read through once and watch my PLL.

Life has been messy. My life has been messy. Everything everywhere, projects all half done, trust issues, girls' issues. Sometimes, I dont know who to trust. Sometimes you have to stand firm on your decision, you choose your own path. Follow your heart I guess?

Yesterday was really one hell of the day which I wont allow myself to repeat again. I love you, WC.

666th post; how do you get up from a all time low?

Miserable at its best now. The boy's friends spending more time with him than me. I been dating projects, been through a week without him. It sucks at least I am trying to get used to it. But fucking hell, not like he is in army already. Is like hot and cold.

Maybe I been expecting way too much. This carries on, I will never be satisfied. 27 more days before my first end sem paper. I will get this shit through.

Apart from school, still school. I barely got a life. They say 2.1 is hell, sure is indeed.

I am not okay with all that is going on right now, but we all have been through it, almost done already. All I can do is really just bear with it and survive this.

One thing that my boyfriend said that I should remember is that I can only rely on myself, it will benefit myself - sooner or later.

And I miss that boy so very much.

Last month of school but barely breathing.

Hopefully, you’ll be able to deal with my mood swings. I’m sorry if I get jealous and if I act childish sometimes. When I say that I’m ok, it means that all I want is a tight hug and somebody to talk to. I don’t want you to just be my boyfriend, I want you to be my best friend, my partner in crime and my shoulder to cry on. I know I am not perfect, I have a lot of flaws, but I promise to love you in every way that I can.

Talking to the moon, trying to get to you.

Fuck all this.

Currently: Eating on cereals + oreos + milk and watching Nine Lives of Chloe King

Stay home fridays and weekends.

Cause just tonight, I just really want to see you. All your attention on me and only me.

You are the one who I can really run to to share all my problems and more problems. You always listen to me and give me your advice.

Thank you for being here with me and for always listening my dear.

& the boy cooked for me and is been some time since he did.

I love you. <3

School on the other hand is fucked up. Tp is fucked up, IFM is fucked up. I am fucked. Then again, no use whining, projects wont magically do themselves. Swallow it done, just do it. Next few weeks done for presentations and more presentations. Swallow it down, suck it up.

Transformer的毛就叫 Transfer， Transformer的任务叫 Transmission， Transformer 的运动叫Transport， Transformer的妹妹叫 Transistor， Transformer的父母叫 Tranparent。

Hit the club for the first time, legally of course, and now I know why people go to clubs to sometimes, forget troubles.

Left kinda early cause me and my boy got squeeze like sardines. Crashed at his place without removing contacts and make up. Dirty but was really tired. He hugged me to sleep, is been so long since he did that. If every night could be like last night, if only.

And I miss that boy already.

Back to school and facing projects and dramas.

I know why you are afraid of 'things falling apart'. Because you've gained so much in the past few years/ months that you don't want to lose it. You find yourself treasuring and appreciating the people around you and you're afraid that they might not feel the same. They might not need you as much as you need them, or one day they just find someone better to replace you. Friendships or relationships.

My dear sexy wrote me this, is like you can read my mind even you are miles apart.

As the philosopher Janet Jackson once said "You dont know what you got till it's gone"' - In a relationship? You love her? She can cook, great in bed, holds your head when you're sad and laughs at all your lame ass jokes? However you can't help but wonder if maybe there might be someone better? Guess what sunshine, there ain't.

-Obnoxiousowl

It feels like everything going to fall apart and is not a good feeling at all.

Sometimes I dont know what to feel anymore.

If I just had 30hours in a day. No, shall not be greedy and ask for 36hours.

I would spend more time with the boyfriend.

I would spend more time on driving lesson to get it asap.

I would spend more time with the bed, catching up on my sleep.

I would spend more time to complete my projects and study for test.

I would spend more time to the facials to maintain my cui face.

Then again, is just a if. Back to reality people, 24hours a day.

Stuck at home the whole day with projects after projects. Fingers getting stiff from all the typing, clicking and rolling of the keyboard and the mouse.

Public speaking > Project Management ( Which was an epic fail cause i couldnt find anything!) > Financial > BCM

Maybe is quite productive, at least started on a few right?

"You know its always going to be like this, all your friendships are like this. Fuck distance, fuck time differences, fuck social networks. We're all going to be strangers again, eventually. In our lives, when people leave, they leave for good. They leave for the rest of the world and they never get the chance to come back because there's no one left to come back to. I'll see you one day, yes you might"

-KeyDough

"I think love is a useless word for descriptions these days. Love binds and pulls and tugs and shatters, breaks and stirs and murders and revives, all at once. Love is a word turned into a full stop in teenagers’ conversations, peppered all over to spice a bowl of bland sentence soup. Love is an excuse for not loving. Love is an inspiration for the most handsome things in the world. Love is a justification for the ugliest things in the world. Love is indefinable, yet has its place in every single dictionary, in probably every single language.

And I won’t be hypocritical; I’m one of these people who exploit the word like breaths of air. It’s almost like a hello and goodbye in every conversation. It’s a “hey Tim, bye Tim, I love you Tim.” kind of thing. Its things you say drunkenly to strangers, or things you say to people you don’t really care about at all. Yet you can wake up one morning, to the most beautiful face you know, and know that this was the one, this was the one for sure, this was the one that makes your heart want to describe colours that don’t exist and the one that makes you want to stop time as you kiss and you lose your head into a blind space.

And all you could offer is the same “I love you” you praised your mom as she packed you pbnj sandwiches for lunch.

I could say I loved you, and be right and wrong all at once. I could say I loved you, and then squeeze in a “but”, but that would be like drawing a bold line in permanent marker across a Mona Lisa painted in gold with rubies and diamonds embedded in the details. I could say I love you. I could mouth it. Write it down. Paint it on paper and etch it on trees. But no. I don’t love you. I will never say it and mean it.

I will show you."

— Nova Halle

Week 11 of school down. In the next few weeks, projects and assignments will be due, more pressure, more conflict, more stress, more hair loss. I am really tired of the girls drama. We all have differences and we are selfish no matter how much we think we are not. He is may be right, about some guys may be more mature then girls. in mentally. Does do we even put aside all those and let it go? Are we able to really forget it when we say we do? We are more likely to say fuck you. I do it too often, not sparing a though for others. And fuck myself for not doing that cause words hurts, esp those that we do not think twice. I am really mentally tired. Is there even such thing as too tired to be able to fall asleep?

Maybe, just maybe I want 2012 to be real. The world is such a cruel place, society is scary and judgmental. What have become of us? Such monsters. Sometimes, I really dont know who is actually not faking mask. Friends is indeed such a vague terms.

Negative thoughts aside because he says that I have too much negative stuff on my mind.

The boy never fail to surprise me. Even mini ones like calling me last minute saying that he us coming to my place for dinner. Yes I do want to always spend my free time with you and not my projects. I always want your attention. But I am trying to balance it all. Too much of something is unhealthy too. My dear, you been great. I am sorry if I have whine too much till it pisses you off and having to affect your mood just to deal with my issues. I guess I have been too insensitive, even after so long. When I say 'believe me, I am trying' I am really trying.

The normal boobs ( . )( . ), the silicone boobs ( + )( + ), the perfect boobs (o)(o) Some boobs are cold (^)(^), and some boobs belong to grandmothers \./\./ And let’s not forget the very large boobs (o Y o), and very small boobs (.)(.), and lastly the asymmetrical boobs (•)(.). We love them all!. Say ┌П┐(◉_◉)┌П┐ to breast cancer. Save the boobies!

“There are times to stay put, and what you want will come to you, and there are times to go out into the world and find such a thing for yourself.”

One hell of the week. So many work undone. I am dying but hanging on. I can do this. I need constant reminders too.

Let this week be good, just let it be cause the next few weeks are the weeks that I am dreading.

Stay home Saturday equals to doing my assignments tutorials and projects. I feel so accomplish right now.