Models wanna be.


LOL @xuan







More shots of the chalet. Thanks Keith for being the photographer eh. More than half is unglam only. But then again, whenever I look, makes me laugh.
Problems sitting down, walking, tummy muscles are aching badly too. How to survive work tmr morning!
And today training like awkward only, like awkward turtle.

Maybe she is right, at least you told me. I can only blame myself.

i look like .. cui only.

Not much pictures. This chalet definitely beats my own class chalet hands down. So does kitkat beats timeout. Period. Feels good to meet you all up after all the saying 'meet up soon'. Wasnt really hard to break the ice. Good catching up and make a new friend.
Slapback21 + alcohol + i never + indian poker = laughter, which make the best medicine.
Stayed up late or rather early morning with keith. Star glaze at530 in the morning. Sky's was perfect cause is was really filled with stars. Perfect view except that my contacts was out and all I see is shiny stuff.
Next thing we realized, was the chipping of birds, stars fade and sun's up. Took a short nap then plans was ruin cause it was raining. Decided to play catching at the playhouse? Which we got chased out.

So many plans now since exams are over. Swimming and picnic with vb people, sentosa with touch girls. Shopping with teammates. (Y)

Just one more chance
Hold me tight and keep me warm
Cause the night is getting cold and I dont know where I belong.

Been a long afternoon and night. Could even any food without visiting the toilet after that. Even till now. Had a pie and straight away chiong to the toilet. I dont even dare to eat anything right now. Muscle aching from today's training. I lose hope sometimes, but this time maybe is time for me to fight for the position I guess? But I tried, is not like I dont put in effort. Perhaps the effort I put in is not enough. Cant play for nuts. Born this way huh. Damn it, I need to breathe. Things will be okay. It has to be.

Just 3 things I want to say to 3 different people
A- You're so good at making people feeling insecure.
B- I know you wont read this space, but I been there. But your problems are none of my concern but I still want him to be happy. Just treat him right.
C- That is a big big word you used there.

For what is worth...

You are going through shit, so are they. So am I. Come on, we all face all kind of bullshit everyday anyw.
I dont think I am capable of love anymore. More capable of being a bitch instead.

You say you miss me but I call it a bluff, you never made an effort so I shouldn't either. I hold myself back so I could see if you truly care, test? Yes, you could say that but from the looks of us not talking that much, you failed. I guess my gut feeling prevailed.

I get really attached quickly, then they leave. It’s my life story in a fucking sentence. Everyone I care about leaves eventually. Everyone. I’m getting used to the let down. Dont you?

Major pictures spam ahead.

Work sucks, I know.

&discovered some things today. One, awesome choc muffins at sunshine plaza. Awesomely sinful. Ate 2! Two, shall not say here. Secrettttttttttttt.

Studying later at anchorvale mac again! Time to chiong all the way for rebus.

Cozy, just the way I like it.

Working in about 12hours time again, after coming back from a closing shift. I have yet to memorize 3 marketing lectures. All these memorizing reminds me of studying geo, too much info I cant take it. Hopefully the efforts I have put in dont go down the drain cause I need to score for this cause I screw up maths.

&maybe, perhaps, I am really done with everything. We dont really get what we want, do we? I am not bitter, just over it. All this shitty things and problems. Do I really have to deal with it, deal with you? I am so tired. Mentally. Physically. All I can do is take one step at a time. Do everything with caution.
At least my trip to Bali is confirm at the end of the month. I need to catch up on my sleep before my 8hour shift starts. Goodnight.

Day ten: one confession.

I am not totally over my ex even tho I keep telling myself and the others I am. Well, first love are hard to forget I guess.

Day nine: two smileys that describe your life right now.

>:O

:/

Someone on fb add me, I really have no idea who is this fellow. But the photo album is filled with jucstin bieber faces. Hell gross.

Just realised today is 8.9.10

Means, VD gonna be out soon!

Day eight: three turn ons.

1. Smells damn right nice/sweet.
2. Awesome kisser.
3. Muscular chest.

This is prolly what I am feeling now.

His eyes pierce mine and for a moment I feel as if the rest of the world is closed out and it’s just the two of us. The urge to jump into his arms and feel the warmth of them surrounding me is so powerful, I wonder if it’s medically possible to be addicted to another human being.

Day seven: four turn offs.

1. Body odor.
2. Justin Bieber.
3. Hairy legs.
4. Now, studying for rebus.

Happy thoughts :
Wallpaper's up!
A day closer to having my own room.
Payday tmr.
One paper down.
Sexy got the job at some ice cream shop!
So, big portions of ice cream when I visit her.
Cinnamon meltz today again!

Depressing thoughts:
Justin Bieber song is playing on the radio and I hate it.
Math sucks cause I screw it up.
Family problems.
No food at home.
I mean nothing.
Seeing my fats
Training in 9/10 days.
Modules I am taking next sem, and how to cope.

Why cant I see that you were playing from the start. Holding on, the days drag on
Stupid girl, I should have known, I should have known

Day six: five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever)

1. Mama
2. Sharon
3.Everyone who
4. Made it into
5. My life

Another 5/6 hours of maths with the same people, this time at mac somewhere near sengkang. Songs was definitely much better then the airport. Classic music puts people to sleep. Aircon like power only. Got so distracted halfway. Dom never fails to talk cock which lightens up all of us. Staring at the 2m guy working there, I swear his legs are like long. I bet his pants are custom made. Weird people encounter today. 3 guys to clean the doors and window. One guy almost slam the door on Julia's face. Kids crying are damn annoying, so are their screams. Some girl name Geraldine was having her party at mac. Balloons were given out. Did I mention I tried cinnamon meltz for the first time and damn its awesome.
Cranky after all the phasor diagram and the complexity of numbers. Brain juice squeezed dry already.

Fix myself up, pick up the pieces. Don't pretend like you know what's going on. I know what's happening and I wish you had the guts to tell me.

Woke up early, headed to airport to study. I was way too early cause the rest was one hour late. How do I complete 5 maths papers before my maths exams? I am not even confident of answering the question. Mind also not with the maths questions. Keep losing focus while studying and working. Felt like a zombie almost the whole day.

&What is with ah gong and ah ma using iphones these days.

Day five: six things you wish you’d never done.

1. Let my guard down.
2. Thinking optimistic.
3. Eat so much.
4. Said things I dont even mean.
5. Spent so long to get over you.
6. Being such a cry baby.

The worst part is not that you thought you had a chance. It’s that he made you think you had one.

THIS.IS.WHAT.KILLED.ME.

I could only blamed myself for hoping too much. Seriously, these things only happen whenever my exams is near. I also wish this was just a dream. Fuck reality, fuck this that everything.

Day four: seven things that cross your mind a lot.

1. Never being good enough for anyone.
2. What if..
3. Will I ever survive the week.
4. Being attached.
5. Have my burp ever offended anyone.
6. How God looks like and
7. How He thinks of me

Told you I'm a walking contradiction.

Day three: eight ways to win your heart.

1.Smells damn right good.
2.Sweet words
3.Cuddle me, always.
4.Must be a good kisser, definitely!
5.Do those helpless romantic stuffs like the movies.
6.Random text telling he miss me.
7.Surprises.
8.Able to think of me first instead of himself.

RUBI IONXZXZ




Reason I am still working at where I am working. &finally got my hands on this pictures!

Blogger makes me feel like I am blogging too much cause I keep posting. Tumblr wins hands down. First day of september and so far so good I guess. Back to school with Jack It, traveling all the way to amk for koi to kill time and try it for the first time. Pearls like free only. Studying also went smoothly. One paper down. Now my room seems big, only two pathetic mattresses and one cupboard. Choosing wallpaper tmr with mama.
Shall go watch my True blood now. Here I come Bill and Eric.

BUILD A BRIDGE AND GET OVER ALREADY. DAMN IT ABRIE.

Day two: nine things about yourself.

1. I burp, LOUDLY. And not ashamed to say it out.
2. I have no problems with gays.
3. Turing 18 in 5 months.
4. I hate justin bieber.
5. Sometimes i feel like I am ‘Jack of all trades, Master of none’
6. I have friends that I can pour my heart too, and thankful for that.
7. I can stand coldness but not the heat.
8. I eat non stop.
9. I like to whine, so deal with it.

Day one: ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.

1.Whatever that is you’re struggling with, conquer it and I am sure when next time the same thing happens again, you know what to do.
2.Best ever, in-est ever, awesome mama I could ever ask for. I love you.
3.Same boat pretty much? We shall suck it up.
4.I never stop waiting and checking my phone, so just talk to me.
5.I missed you.
6.Kopi Gao
7.Sorry for how I treat you.
8.And you.
9.I wish you all the best.
10.Bring your polaroid/cameras on the 13th!