Miss teacher's day a miss today cause sexy needs to study. Instead went to ikea with mama and brother to decide on bed frame and some other stuffs. And my room aint that big i realize. Cupboard taking up too much space. At least I got the bed frame I wanted and excited to decorate it with beautiful photos, maybe quotes and stickers. But I still cant decide what colour should my room be.

Also,when I dont hope for anything or expect nothing, I dont feel that bad. Its time I lower my damn expectations already. Fuck how the world works. So tired of it.

Really, I shouldnt expect anything cause every time I do, I always see myself crashing, see my hopes dying. Wishful thinking. Never good enough in the first place. When was the last time I keep losing sleep. Why does it keep happening again and again. I get cold feet and maybe I shouldnt let my guard down in the first place. I miss you. Chocolates make me happy. &I found out how much i weigh today and I dont like what I see.

On a happier note, mama finally getting somethings done. Like renovate the house a little so that I could have a room to call me own after 7 years of waiting. New bed frame, study table, cozy corner that I plan to have if there is enough space. My room gonna be my new secret hideout. Now, what colour should my room be...

Mind fucked. Paranoid. Over sensitive.

Just got to try harder.

Class chalet was more like clique chalet. People got drunk and high and maybe said whatever they wanted to say for a long time. How could I be so oblivious to my surroundings, my friends. At least now I am clear of something. Shit always happens at chalet, dont it? Pretty much get high and forget about it. Had a long night taking care of three drunk cats. What an experience. Next time, is my turn to get drunk too.

I am not good with words, never had been. I am too, a little messed up. I got issues and insecurities. Not sure if this is what you're heading for. But you've been my sweetest drug.

I have yet to watch Despicable Me, Eclipse, Step up 3 in 3D, Salt and Karate Kid. Where to find this movies online!
And there is a upcoming Owl movie!

Feel lost at training today. Back to middle position which only confuses me but I am willing to give a shot. At least I can tell myself I tried. Class chalet and vb training tmr! Cant be any happier. Get to see my girlies after so long since the holidays started and Chew. F21 loots is here so are the exams. Been long since I touched my math text! I bet the complex number got even more complex to solve.

Why do mosquitoes like to suck my blood at the totally wrong places. My lips, above my lips, my toes and now my butt.
Itchy.

Dont drift away from people.

Learnt E.O.D last night. And i foresee myself having more closing shift. Next week gonna be busy like no one's business. Today seems like a good day to study Real Estate Business. I shall complete all the notes by today.
Even though was a pretty short trip yesterday to town, I kinda like the company. Free starbucks and chilling outside before heading to work.

Hopefully the trip to Bali is confirm cause I really want to getaway and chillax on corner!

My mama saw the wallpaper on my phone and goes " why you always put sharon on your wallpaper one? Me leh? "
She is another person that never fails to amuse me sometimes.
I love you, you really been a great mama. I am sure you know that.

Things seem to have taken a turn.
I like.

Study date with sexy and marc yesterday at the airport. Had awesome time shooting at marc and his 20bucks haircut which fail ttm cause it really damn cui. Sorry marc. This time was more productive then the previous. Completed 4 lectures! &Sharon handwriting got smaller. Amazing.

Have a little faith in yourself, abrie.

Adam Lambert might be coming down to Singapore soon! Cant wait cant wait!

Shortage eft again today. Suck ballz.

Tiny pig out with Sharon, well I did not her. But i want another Ben&Jerry pig out again! Burger king yami yougurt then long john is the equation to fatz. And no sharon, jon dont even look fat but still very black tho! Chill at the rooftop garden at orchard central. Wind was awesome and my hair was obedient today. Commenting on couples everywhere, look right. And felt like we were freezing @313. Jia hua look alike. And omgz I love your shoes. Thanks Sharon ♥

You must understand that even though you love a person, you must consider the fact that you are not the only who makes him happy.

This is what making me lose hope, fear of never being good enough.

Let the rain fall down
And wake my dreams
Let it wash away
My sanity
'Cause I wanna feel the thunder
I wanna scream

One whole suitcase of shades was stolen yesterday at my work place. To the bugger, seriously, like the suitcase give you lah, why steal the whole damn thing. Now we are all being f up. Time to find another job?

Never believe in Friday The 13th. Now I do. What a day.

So the torch have come to TP. Singing the OH YEAH OH YEAH and everyone drive us nuts. At least there was free coke.






Two days in a row having sugar biscuits and milo for lunch. I can lose some unwanted fats around my tummy and my cheeks.
Everybody is telling me that my cheeks is getting chubbier. Cute what.

The funny thing is that it still hurts after I have decided to let it go. Heart never felt so heavy before even after it have happen before.

Funny thing is that the heart is still beating even though is broken.

Today was intense much.
Give me a reason to fight on.
A reason to smile, a reason to live.
Who isn't tired of all the same shit that is happening.

I don't wanna wait for you to change
You'll always gonna stay untogether

Heartless.

Time to search for motivational quotes and simplify complex numbers. I can be a nerd if I want to.

Just leave me your stardust to remember you by.

I need to work even harder but it stressing me out and I gave my best.

Finally, projects have been done and over with.

I accidentally cut myself with the scissors while cutting the grass to feed my chinchilla. Painful yes but it felt good. At least I know how pain feels like and I am not feeling numb.

Cry if you want, scream if you must and take out all the pain you feel within. Don’t you dare hide it because once you start to hide it, it will build up and before you know it you will explode, and sooner or later you will have to face the pain. Go ahead and cry on the train on the bus while driving, before you go to sleep, when you hear the song, when you see things that remind you of this certain person.

— itsonlythewind